Any news of my untimely demise is only a slight exaggeration. Here's the scoop. My insurance company has contacted me agian this afternoon and told me that my benefits are indeed going to be canceled as of the end of this month. This is devastating. My insurance benefits are already half of what my salary had been, and that salary was $20K less than my prior position. The insurance company still wants something from a "treating physician" regardless of the fact that what I have can't be treated and no one is treating me for it. The last time I was at the doctor was January 07 with very high blood pressure. It was about that time that I stopped taking my BP because the stress over it wasn't worth it.
Stress could kill me. Literally. I already have a problem with blood pooling and not circulating properly. This causes my heart rate to go up. Add to that the fact that I have 3 liters less blood than I should, and it makes my tachycardia even worse. When you are under stress, the stress hormones raise your heart rate even further and concentrates blood in your muscles, which makes my heart rate even worse because it is already fighting against pooling problems, volume problems, and now re-direction problems and hormonal stimulation. It's a recipe for a coffin.
Anyway, I'd appreciate some fervent prayer on this. And if anyone knows of a good free lawyer, I'd love to hear from you. I have a huge amount of stress right now. Not only do I have this on my plate, but I have a teenage son who has hit a rebellious stage, and my mom's cancer recovery has stalled with what appears to be the same kind of symptoms that I have. She may have developed the same thing. The good news (if there is a lining to the storm cloud) is that her oncologist may know some doctors in the area that are familiar with the condition.