Today is the 25th. It has been over three weeks since I was told that my disability benefits were being canceled. And, with only 5 days remaining before my expected last check (what I was planning on living off of and using to pay for additional doctor visits) I find out that they have not yet approved the letter detailing why my claim was canceled, much less mailed it, and all the details of my right to appeal this and how to do that are in that letter. To make matters worse, I am told that I'm not going to be getting the check at the end of this month. I haven't even received the referral yet that it took me until the 14th to be able to get into the doctor to request. By the time a referral to an out-of-state expert in this condition arrives, I'll have no medical insurance and no money to pay for it myself.
This is *my* budget and clock they are running out. It is *my* health and psychy that they are screwing with. It has only been 5 minutes since I found out this news, and my arms are already numb, I have chest pains, and my entire head feels like someone shot it up with Novocain. I've even gotten sick over this and thrown up. I am going to need some serious down-time. If you don't see me around much, you'll know why.